Why am I such a fucking failure gawd.
Don’t look at me like “How can you be a failure, what about me”. If you can be a fucking failure well so can I. And if you want to change how I think go change how you think first.
This is stupid why can’t I change how you think. I’m horrible and I fail. There. Stupid stupid stupid. Stupid stupid stupid ARGH.
I think it’s just unfair to wake up forgetting why I was so unhappy. It’s just, not fair.
I screwed up again. Another time. Bad.
There are things I want to keep with me 3651 days from today, and I don’t want to lose them. But I’m lost and have no idea where it is.
I screwed up and I’m paying for it.
I wish stupid things and stupid people didn’t exist. Or rather I wish someone would knock them on their heads and make them less stupid for the benefit of everyone else.
Clearly I should be unhappy LOL
Perhaps I’ve been subscribing too much to self-help and religion XD Eh, makes life better for everyone.
-RANT POST PLEASE DON’T READ TO MAKE YOUR MOOD BAD-
I cannot imagine how I spent the past few months. I cannot do this again. I cannot imagine myself do this again. Absolutely nuts, gosh. Makes me wonder how I survived till today.
Sleep seems like a convenient form of escape for most people. Well I don’t like escaping. Face it, get it over and done with. You’ll be alive. Yay.
There’s never anything to worry or be unhappy about. It’s all in the mind.
I feel so bad to rant here muahaha. Just too bad.
I know people are different. I did imagine talking to a clone of myself. That if I died and transferred my genetic memories and personality into a hologram projector and revived myself I’d be speaking to someone who knew exactly what I was thinking. Hey that’s pretty cool! Except that I wouldn’t need to talk to communicate myself…
If I can’t do something for you, like right now, because either I’m too weak to do this or I’m tired and I need to sleep, then maybe I should try doing something for other people.
I know positive thinking, being happy and stress-free, time-management etc etc and all that random shit that most people think is awesome, but just let me be unhappy for a while. Let me wallow in my self-pity just for a few moments. A few would do. I mean, if anyone wants them they’re free for taking. It always has been. I’m not all that awesome as anyone would like to think.
-emos for a few moments-
I post irrational stuff for my own viewing pleasure XD I’m sorry if this made anyone unhappy, but there’s absolutely no need to. Everyone should be happy :D Regardless of skin-colour and which God you believe in (or if you don’t). Share the love and happiness :D
(via glace-)
